On Sunday, our wonderful New Wave Band leader, mister JP Yun, called a NWB meeting. For the life of me, I can't remember what we talked about. I think it went a little something like this:
-We have to be more punctual, he's tired of having to chase us around to get to church on time.
-We have to be more responsible, he's tired of having to track us down to have us blog regularly. ...Which I find semi-hilarious for some unbeknown reason.
-We stepped up, we need to be responsible for what that means. *insert some kind of meaningful sentence using the words responsible and responsibility excessively* ...Seriously, I can't remember the exact words.
Don't get me wrong, I completely understand where he's coming from. Truth be told, I'm extremely guilty of what he was complaining about, ie: I rarely blog, I'm rarely punctual, and I'm rarely energetic when it comes to NWB practices, performances, or otherwise. But, here's my two cents on the whole "stepping up, taking responsibility" life lesson.
My first point: NWB was formed 3-4 years ago, if my memory serves correct. That's a long time, especially considering that's around a third of my life, a fourth of Kenny's and Jerry's, etc. We started with many more than the measly four of the original members we have now. Not to downplay anyone's role or anything, but we've dropped (I say dropped, I mean they quit >_<) more than six members and went through multiple leaders during this time. If anyone's not taking responsibility, it's any one of the numerous people who had a taste of NWB and decided it wasn't for them, not the members who are sticking to it now.
My second point: This whole "youth stepping up as leaders" thing is really driving me insane. Am I the only one who sees this as a paradox? Youth are leading youth now, leaving leaders to lead leaders? Leaders can only lead if they have followers, and the number of those fish in this pond are diminishing. Again, I completely understand the thought behind all this; giving youth more responsibility and leaders more slack. But getting an early start at being a leader feels odd when I'm fifteen years old and I'm leading eighteen year olds. ._.
My third point: Let's face it, I'm only complaining about all this because I personally feel miffed about it. I'm part of NWB (I play a small role, but I play one), part of praise team (again, small role, small world), and I've recently been appointed as a spiritual temp (aka: Bible study leader for a bunch of kids who can't take me seriously). And to top it all off, I'm New Wave Admin/Treasurer, here for all your financial needs and deeds. That's a lot on my palate, in case you're wondering. It's enough to make me snap at the other NW officers frequently, accusing them of being useless and irresponsible (Sorry guys, I really am... :'(). So when the band leader wants to us to kick it up a notch on this "responsibility" thing, I'm ready to throw my hands up and surrender.
My fourth and last point (Finally, it's almost over, huh?): NWB is not my life. Being a NW officer is not my life. Heck, church is not my life. I've got a whole lot of other things in my life to struggle and pull out white hairs about. I'm all for being responsible and doing my part, stressing to get to church on the dot to play around with instruments or slapping myself for forgetting to leave time to write a blog post is not my idea of responsible. And even with these small things, like getting to practice on time or posting on my blog, it would be a heck of an incentive if our leaders would do the same. By leaders, I mean both of our wonderful NWB leaders. I personally like seeing your faces on Friday afternoons, it's a shame I don't get to very often.
As a member of NWB and not a leader, I'll respect what you told us on Sunday and try to correct my mistakes and the things you pointed out. But I posted this to let it be known that I probably will not succeed in doing everything perfectly, but I will be trying my best.Har har har, look at me, taking that meeting on Sunday oh-so-seriously.
By the way...
Have you seen this movie?
It's craaaaaazy. :D
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
-Linkin Park
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2 comments:
yea, last sunday was really depressing- everyone seemed stresed & annoyed. but i really hope that we can step up despite- like you said the whole lotta other things in our lives! > <. lately to me, everything has seemed like a drag, but hopefully, maybe, somehow, we can find some joy in all of this & what we are doing for God. But anyways, have a great week bunny :)<3 & hope its not to draining/ full of pressuree
im glad u hear the word "responsible" atleast....
but nonetheless, b positive that God is molding u Easter... and u are all being stretched as leaders and servants, as are we.
it's funny, bcuz when we were ur age we were complaining about the same things...
stick it thru Easter, i have faith :)
p.s. thanx for the post! keep it coming
"And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men..." Colossians 3:23
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